Im also thinking my head will be more clear once i can start going to the gym regularly again…having these stupid ass hours sucks ASS

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all of that ass

// My Life//

Only I would have such ridiculously horrible dating experiences and not know how to react to them…

Guy takes me out to mini golf..which is always totally cute in the movies right? WELL let’s not forget who we are talking about. Mini golf was totally uneventful…like totally cheapy run down bad indie movie, garden state style mini golf haha. In which we finish all 19 holes in half an hour and all I can think the whole time is please let this end before i beat him with this damn golf club.

We go back to his house to watch TV in which i assume i can save the date by making him watch my favorite show on netflix. BOY WAS I WRONG. The sound of his voice merely made me wanna punch a baby. In addition he kept looking at me like “oh girl you so hot i wanna kiss yo face” I didnt know what else to do soooo i like sat really far away AND then was like i gotta go.

Now I feel like a bitch because he is totally nice and perfectly harmless but I dont think we are all that good of a fit. I cant decide if I should just end it or stick around a little longer because i feel bad.

typical life for me…noone likes and the ones that do…i cant stand haha

jesus take the wheel i will be single forever

whats a girl to do

Lately I have been working more than doing anything else with my life and SHIT IS CRAY! I dont wanna be a workaholic i’m too young.

At this rate I will never have a life.

I must update my recent adventures in dating…but i’ve decided I would like a tall attractive boy with tattoos who can accept my personality flaws and is witty as hell. I dont feel like thats a lot BUUUUUT this isnt the movies…

Once again I have found myself in this state where my mind is overtaken by the decisions I have made. Feeling stupid and embarrassed. Sometimes I wonder if I should care so much but I really cant help it. For some reason events like this keep finding me and just when I think I have it all together. Just when I feel good and happy and functioning. Per usual I am sure this feeling will past once I can stop beating myself up, but until then all I want is to be held. To be told that there is nothing wrong with me and I will not have to feel this way anymore.

That’s all…

// Advice//

SO…I met a super awesome guy this weekend who initiated the exchanging of numbers and told me to call him.

Most of my friends told me I shouldn’t but he seemed like a really promising addition to my life..what and the hell do I do??

Hahaha goodness I am lame…